This blog is very lack of updates. All I can say is: being a parent is a ton of work. Every day is a challenge and every day I learn something new. It's actually really fun to watch a little baby grow especially a breastfed one. The doctor appointments always make me nervous though. It's like getting my score cards every term to see how my progress is. In this case, it's my kid's progress; his progress determines how good of a mother I am.
At 6 months, he unfortunately did not reach the 100 percentile in weight even though he is, slowly, gaining weight. Sometimes I do wonder where did all the breast milk go: why is he not growing heavier? taller? and bigger? Well, I am more realistic about the growth charts. This is how I look at it: he is much less likely to become obese in the near future.
His weight-gain somehow did not translate into my weight-loss. I still have that 10 lbs lingering around everywhere on my body that just does not want to go away. This is very frustrating. I work out and train, but I can't really diet as I used to.
I tried though. I tried my old diet with green juice, steel-cut oats, sardines, and very very little carbs. The result was the empty boobs. Oh no, that's no good at all.
I don't want the breast milk supply to go down since I ambitiously want to breast feed for 1 year, but I also do not want to eat like a mad man, which I sometimes do. I mean, I still eat healthy but I do need the calories to keep up with the supply. There is really a fine line to make good balance. I just don't know how to make that balance.
I have about 2 weeks to get ready for a trip where I will have to be in my bathing suit and I feel depressed about it. Blah. This summer I just don't have a beach-ready body to flaunt. I wonder if when people see me in a bathing suit, they can easily recognize that I am a mom and gave birth 6 months ago?! And they will cut me some slack.
Yes, that's what has been bothering me recently. Sigh.
DearJulie
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