Selfless

I am always the first to admit how selfish I am, as a daughter, as a wife, as a friend, and as a person in general. When I was pregnant, I was perhaps the most selfish mom-to-be ever since I worried only for myself, did things only for myself and I am not sure if it's a good idea that my kid might get to read all the previous blog posts in the future, you know, when he can read.

I was almost so certain that I will be a very selfish mom.

Things are changing. Not that I am not selfish anymore. It's more like, with blueberry around, I don't have time to be a bit selfish.

I can't just go to the gym, go running whenever I want.
I can't just go to buy bubble tea whenever I want.
I can't just go hang out with friends whenever I want.
I can't just sleep whenever I want.
I can't have date nights with TB whenever I want.

I can't even eat when it's meal time, like how I want it.

Life is different now. I have a baby to take care of. He is the priority over myself so I now do everything with him, for him, and around him. Believe it or not, I have become the most accommodating person in the world, if you know how demanding a baby is. I know I am not the only one who has a baby but it's my first time having a baby. I have the right to be very proud of myself.

Moms are supposed to be selfless.

It definitely takes a baby to transform someone like me to be a mom, a good one. At least that's the goal I set for myself. I want to be a good mom. Since I am always so good at what I do and I want to do, I am sure it's not too difficult to become a good mom. I also have the best "teacher" by my side to teach me how to become one.

Thanks to blueberry.

Being selfish is for my own happiness. Being a good mom will result in a wonderfully happy baby; I am happy if my blueberry is happy, so being a good mom is also for my own happiness. Not sure if it makes any logical sense, but that's what I think.

Therefore, freedom is overrated. Blueberry owns me now.


DearJulie