The bigger the better

As weight conscious as I am, I started to worry that my belly is not big enough. I don't want to give birth to a baby that's less than 6 lbs - in a world that the nutrition is overloaded, as least in this part of the world, that's just not healthy. I have been researching for diet plans and workout routine that I can easily follow so that all the weight gain goes to the baby, not me.

One method is to cut down carbs. People talk about cutting down carbs ALL THE TIME! But if you have done it, or if you are a big bagel whore like me, you know it's hard. I allow myself a bagel (toasted, scooped out with nothing on it) in the morning but make sure that I have a workout to follow to burn it off. I add as much protein in my diet as possible - I even started drinking milk, so that all the nutrients go to the baby. Again, a balanced diet and regular workout are the only two things I do not compromise. NEVER!

However, I noticed that my belly is not progressing the way I thought it would. Granted, I don't really know how big my belly should be, but when I googled "5 month pregnant", all the photos of women with gigantic belly popped up.

Are these what it is supposed to look like?If so, I am far behind, way far.

My concern is that my baby is not big enough. See I am contradicting to myself?  I don't want to gain weight but I want my baby to be big....

This morning, I had a business meeting with attorney who is only 2 weeks (pregnant) behind me. She told me that a good friend of hers, tiny frame, gained 14 lbs in total for one pregnancy and the baby was born a healthy 7 lbs. Wow! I am already beyond 14 lbs. She also told me another lady she knows, also a gym buff, still has some vague 6 packs even though she is 4 month pregnant. Well, that I believe because I could still feel my left-over 2 pack muscle. Her herself gained 60 lbs for the first pregnancy but she wanted to keep the weight down for this one.

There are just all the stories and experiences people share that just amaze me. They all told me that my belly will suddenly get big maybe in the last month or so. I am just hoping that is the case. Still, every day, I am struggling to make sure my weight gain is on the right track because I don't want to have to cut down eating because I gain too much. Some people told me "you can't control it". But heck I will control it. It's my body and I know it the best.

The whole point is, I know my body is being deformed. However, I want to make sure it still looks good. In the mean time, I am working extra hard to watch the weight for the recovery as well. If I really just let my body go, it's going to be very hard to lose all the weight in the end.

#weightstruggle
DearJulie


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Workout of the day: cycling 45 minutes
Upper body workout  (too many to record)
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